God’s love never fails and this is what we need the most. Indeed, without love, we are nothing. Love comes with the spirit, therefore, whatever comes without the spirit and only comes from the knowledge and behavior will cause us to receive a lot of accusations from Satan so that we will not truly see God’s love and finally, we can’t even love people around us. As I’ve shared before that many times, I expect men loves more than God, thus it leads to envy, lousiness and conditional. And frequently, I think only when I’m not weak, I’m able to love God and men. However, all these only brings me more accusation because I can’t be perfect to love God and men, but only when I come before God with my imperfection (sin/weaknesses), that is when God’s perfection (grace) is revealed and increased in me. Therefore when I see myself a great sinner (不能）, I realized I need more of God’s love rather than man’s love. God’s love has great mercy. The Lord’s mercy covers my transgressions, gives me deliverance from darkness/Satan, fills me with His unconditional love and compassion, gives me the strength to stand up and gives me great hope for the Lord. Even if hurts or scars still existed, and sometimes when I think about them, I will feel so hurt and painful, yet when I look at the ‘Cross of Mercy’ (love & forgiveness), God comforts my spirit through His love & understanding and I will not feel so much hurt anymore because I only see/accept ‘I am loved and righteous in Him’.
1) Being Loved: Though it seems like I’ve experience more failure in my life but in actual fact God is bringing me closer to Him and to feel His love. When I am hurt, I come before God and said, ‘Lord I feel so hurt’. When I sinned against God again and I said, ‘ Lord, I’ve sinned against you again, what should I do’? Each time through Pastor had shared from the pulpit message, God said, ‘I’ve already forgiven you and had first loves you before you’ve sinned’. This was keep repeating many times in my mind. Yes, God first loves me, that is the reason He shed the blood for us and we had become God beloved child so no matter what kind of problems or even we we fall down, if we understood the mystery of God first loves us, we will be able to face God and men and see everything that has God’s love and perfect will in it.
2) Sin increase, grace increase all the more: This really touched me a lot. Maybe some of you may wondered, why I kept on talking about sinned. To me, when I indulge into worldly love or disbelief in God, I’ve sinned against Him and so this has been always my struggles. But because of sin increase, grace increase more, I see myself is not totally hopeless and able to see more love and hope from God.
3) Conscience: Yes, conscience can be good but also can kill me. Just one mistake can torture me like hell and also the accusations is so real that it pressure me so much but God still loves me ‘just as I am’, He loves me as a child of God, even though I have many weaknesses. Sometimes I know God has forgiven me, but I still feel myself unclean. Then I realized this was cause by my conscience which Pastor had shared. Although till now, I still have many of my own conscience, so the more I need to restore God’s conscience/righteous in order to have full liberty, and at the end of everything, God just wants my heart for Him(relationship), that’s all.
Made complete in love is only through the love with spirit. The spirit of love needs entire life to learn, for me I find it quite difficult as I’ve shared before how I tried to learn to love my brother even though he has many unlikeable weaknesses, but I believe, even if I fail again, God will never give up on me, as long as I keep continue to look at the ‘Great Grace of Forgiveness’, and not look at Satan accusations, I am able to love the people around. Let’s continue to learn the spirit of love, able to forgive ourselves much then able to love others much. When we receive the mystery of Love God and Men deeper, we will be able to receive the strength to live out the love through our speech and action and even able to sacrifice for one another.
Below is a song named ‘’Your Grace Still Amazes Me’. Let’s enjoy His love and grace of this song.
下面是一首歌，名称为’袮恩典仍然惊奇我‘ ‘。 让我们来享受这首诗歌里面所说的神的爱与恩典。
3) 良心：是的，良心是好的不过也会叫我致命。一个错误会折磨我如地狱一般一样，而控告感也很真实地把我的心灵压的很重，不过上帝仍然爱我，’我就是我了‘，虽然我还有很多软弱，上帝爱的是我这女儿。但有时侯我知道上帝已经原谅我了，可是我还是觉得自己不够圣洁，直到牧师对我说这是因为来自我的良心。虽然直到现在我还有很多自己的良心，所以我更加需要回复神的良心/义, 故此，我才能得到完全的自由。在一切的终点，上帝唯一只要得着我们的心（关系），就这样好了。
<Romans 5:8> But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
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