My past failure and my bad background had always give me a lousiness and guiltiness feeling. Even though I’ve been a Christian for 17 years, this inner problems have not completely break free. Sometimes I grumbled to God, sometimes I depend on my own strength, and sometimes I don’t even want to face God because of these problems. To this extend, sometimes I also can’t love a person especially for those who are close to me because normally I don’t have much patient to them. I know I should love , but I just don’t have the strength to love. I know God loves me and had forgave me, but when accusation comes, I don’t have strength to reject it. So how? I’m I going to let myself rot because of all these problems.
Yes, through this message, God said if I’m forgiven much, I will have the strength to reject all these accusation and also have the strength to love much. But how to be forgiven much? Then, God convinces me that I must first accept the facts that Christ loves me, forgives me and had already solved all my problems. Since Christ already ‘Paid All’, then I tell myself, when these accusations come, which will I choose to believe? What will I want to first look at? Satan insinuation/accusation or God’s promised? I started to practice to look at God’s forgiveness first rather than my own conscience. Then *blink*, I see that God’s love and forgiveness are bigger than my problems;
1) The feeling of lousiness is getting lesser because I see my everything comes good from God and the more I want to earn His favor.
2) The feeling of guiltiness is getting lesser is because I see His understanding and forgiveness in me.
3) The unloving heart is getting lesser is because I see myself unworthy yet receive mercy by God.
* God had shown me His grace through all these.
Indeed when a person is able to be forgiven much, he/she is able to love much. Although sometime I still tends to look at my own weakness but when I really see myself as ‘无能’, really ‘nothing’ at all, I put down my own self/ego and follow God first. Then step by step, God’s grace will added more. I also see that His grace is unlimited because I see myself how i got to know Christ, how I got to know this gospel message and was blessed, how my family came to Christ one by one, how I have a nice husband, how my spirit is getting more healing, how I’m able to serve God despite my slowness, weakness and silence type, all these are God’s grace to me. But the most gracious thing is, how I’m loved and forgiven by God and now I’m able to ‘FIND REST IN HIM. 🙂
Let us not to be discourage and put our hope in Jesus Christ who had already loved us and forgiven us. He is our Lord, our Father, any problems, just put down our own self and run to Him (Love, compassion, Kindness, Gentleness, Faithfulness…). Even if we are weak, God is always gracious to us, what He see is not our perfection but how we are forgiven much and receive His strength (through the cross) to enjoy true liberty. Surely our God will greatly bless us beyond our request and imagination.
He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all
—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?
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