These 2 days, many negatives thoughts had appeared in my mind so I was quite loss on how to write this blog. During the ssg, some of them envy me that I always have the conviction on each Sunday message and to write my blog every week, but the fact is, during the process I struggle with my problems a lot. I can’t just write for the sake of writing, I can’t just stop for a few months because what I’m blogging is about the pulpit message, not just a simple personal story but have to relate to the message even if I am weak or no conviction at all. But I keep hearing God said, ‘Just write without fear, don’t bother about other things, this is your inheritance and the crown in heaven, what you are doing it is for your benefit and you will see greater things I will do in future’. And then once again I stand on my feet up to start my blog. No matter how I write, even if I’m weak or no conviction, I write every blog as my prayer to God and write it as my personal relationship with Him. May those who read my blog will pray for me and able to see your God is real in your life too.
Below is the video short clip for the last Sunday Message.
God’s word is the truth and through His truth, He came to meet us. <John 4:24 said, ‘God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth’.> Only through our spirit and His truth we are able to meet Him personally. Many times we know the truth but we didn’t really meet Him with our spirit, therefore we unable to meet Him. Pastor said we need to ‘enjoy His truth’ and the truth is ‘God is already with me all the time’. Then I asked myself, Do I always enjoy His truth?
This week, I continue to ponder of this truth. How am I able to meet Him in spirit? Then I start to think, Who is God and Who I am?
– God is ‘Jehovah’ (Jesus Christ). He is my father and I am His child.
During the time I’m weak or feeling guilty.. (unreal thoughts). I thought of the meaning of Jehovah and my relationship with Him. Again I ‘know myself’ through my weakest part, I’m able to understand my identity in Him and immediately, my spirit was strengthen with His faith, hope and love. Just like what I’ve shared about my struggle in writing my blog.
Lastly, I’ve tried to ‘confirm His truth repeatedly’. As a full time church worker, everyday is a battle for me because accusation, guiltiness, failure, inferiority are easily affected me. I told myself I need to be free, I cannot always be haunted by all these thoughts even I know if it’s unreal so when I quietly pondered and confirmed the name of Jehovah, He is my Sanctifier, , my Healer, my strength in trouble, my refuge and with all His ‘names’ He is right now with me. The promises He gave to is not others but to His children and I belonged to Him.
Once I confirmed my identity and His promises in me, He shows His love to me that no matter what my conditions is, I know He has plans and perfect will for me. Without all these conditions, without all my weaknesses, I cannot experience His love and His promises for me and be use for His kingdom. So back to the question, do I always enjoy His truth? Yes, with my problems and weaknesses, I meet God through my identity (spirit) and His promises (truth), we can enjoy His truth and all the unreal thoughts will dissipate.
God is with us forever, even in our hardest time. He loves us and is faithful, in Him never change. Rely on His abundant promises to stand firm, our future is in Him control because He is our fortress, our God and we always want to rely on.
Send forth your light and your truth, let them guide me; let them bring me to your holy mountain, to the place where you dwell. Then will I go to the altar of God, to God, my joy and my delight. I will praise you with the harp, O God, my God.
Video (Chinese): http://www.lifechurchmissions.com/VideoWindow.aspx?m=778&f=2546