This is the short clip for the last Sunday message.
These 2 weeks I was quite weak both in spiritually and physically. I was sick in the last whole week. I was coughing until I feel my lung is going to burst, head become dizzy and body become weak. I’ve neither energy nor willpower to do anything; I just lie on the sofa and watched the TV for the whole afternoon. Although it seems I was relaxing watching the TV, but in my heart, I was been accuse by Satan that I didn’t live like a ‘spiritual’ SIC and also worried of a sister who may be angry with me. I realized that watching TV makes me feel tired too. Then I feel my whole body and mind was uncomfortable, no matter what I do, I just feel uncomfortable. Since I can’t do anything, ended up, I decided to go to sleep. The sleep does help my mind and body and I feel much better after that.
This week, I tired to confirm what God’s perfect will is in my whole week of disaster. I realized sleeping is God’s perfect will for me, He knows what I’m going through, He knows I can’t think nor do anything so He makes me sleep so that I can have the strength to think and also won’t feel guilty or accusation. The reason I got all these attacks maybe is because God wants to remind me how important and precious I am. He allows me to weak but at the end of the day, He wants me to stand up and walk with Him by His gospel (grace of the cross) and not by my own strength or willpower. When I was worried that my sister is angry with me, I worried is because by my moral thinking but not because of gospel. Then I told myself that I need to stop all the stupid moral and conscience thinking and I just leave everything to God. Then suddenly, the sister replied my message and was confirmed that she was not angry with me.
Indeed God is alive in every situation. It may seem God is not with me but God is always with me and always working without knowing. God has His ‘Perfect’ will in everything. I repeat is ‘PERFECT’ will not ‘Average’ or ‘Normal’. His love, His kindness, His faithfulness, His forgiveness is always with me and once I see that all His goodness are already fulfilled in my life through the gospel, I can continue to look upon Him, rely on Him and follow Him.
I still continue to learn to confirm God’s perfect will in everyday of my life, but when we continue to see ourselves in all these perspective, we will able to enjoy to meet the living God and living communicate with Him.
This song was composed from our sisters and was presented during the last church camp. Hope you enjoy and always see the perfect will of God in every circumstances and continue to walk with Him without fear.
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.