Here is the short video clip for last Sunday Message.
There are a few turning points in my life. Since I started to receive this Immanuel message when I was 15 years old, my perspective has changed. I started to hunger for the word of God as I have found answer that Jesus is all my problem solver. I remember there is a Sunday school song called “Jesus is the Christ”.
The song goes like this:
Jesus is the Christ
And He’s in my heart
He’s the answer to every problem!
Jesus abides with me
And He will spread His word
To every place on earth
And He will come again soon!
Jesus is the Christ
And He’s in my heart
He’s the answer to every problem!
I remember God had sent Rev. Lee to my church and he said, “Jesus can solve your inferiority and your family.” I was very shocked to hear this because nobody had ever told this to me before. I cried before God and I wanted to know more about this problem-solver of God. From then onwards, I started to listen to this message and follow him to NUS bible study. Through the message, I see new hope in me and my family. The message mentioned about Abraham, Jacab, Moses, David…that all these biblical people have received the promises from God belongs to me too! Is it too exaggeration?! At that time, I don’t know why, I just believe completely without any doubt. Since then, whenever I sing this song, I was filled with thankfulness. Yes, Jesus is all problem-solver, Jesus is with me, and He will use me to spread His word until He comes back again. This is a very simple song but it comforts me a lot when I first heard it. This was the first turning point when I receive this message from God, knowing Christ is the all problem-solver.
But the Immanuel message is not just about knowledge, it is about how to see the “凡事” Immanuel God is with us and to walk with Him 24 hours. God has greater plan for every child, He wants every of His child to truly experience the Immanuel, so that we can enjoy and be able to use the power of Immanuel God. This is also the true evident of success in every child of God.
As the years goes by, I was no longer a student and I started working. In this world, there are many temptations: success, money, status, relationship…etc and these desires became the needs and satisfactions of my life. The world is so real, realer than it seemed – the word of God; everyone is seeking and pursuing all these desires. I was once trapped and deceived by all these, I was very unhappy but I just could not get out. I thought maybe God was angry with me so He is not with me anymore but I was wrong. I have not truly grasped the true meaning of Immanuel. I had been searching for God’s answer but the true answer is that He has never left me nor forsaken me; the Immanuel God is always with me. How do I know? Because I am struggling with the 2 laws, the law of death and the law of spirit. In Ep 6:12, “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms“. Therefore, in Ezekiel 36:27, “And I will put the Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws”. Because we have the law of spirit, so whenever we go astray, the spirit will move us to follow and be careful in His will.” This is the evident of “Immanuel” in me.
I have come to a stage that I truly need God. I need God to satisfy me because the love of this world was unable to satisfy me. The more I crave for the worldly desires, the more unhappy I became. Psalm 90:14 – “Lord, Satisfy us in the morning with you unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad in your days”. So even when the problem still existed, I decided to focus all the way to seek God and turn back to Him. This is also the evidence of “Immanuel” in me.
Every failure I had met and every sin I had committed, there is “Immanuel” in it. I realized it does not matter whether I have failed or sinned how many times, because at the end, God has not give me up. He continue to remind me, discipline me through His words, that why I am still staying in this church, serving Him and my spirit continue to hunger for Him. God wants my repentance just like how He wish the Israel to have this heart. Repentance of disbelief and doubt of God’s love and will for me. I may still some weaknesses but through every problem, God foremost concern is to bring me closer to realizing the true meaning of “Immanuel”. Only through the Immanuel God, all fears, worries, inferiority, failures, sins, guilt and accusations disappear.
Coming to the end of 2010, my heart was filled with thanksgiving. Been a SIC for 1 year and 4 months, I have received a lot of grace from God regardless in good or bad times. God is always there to mould me, discipline me and use me. After years of struggling, my greatest turning point I have this year is to know the great love and mercy of Christ. It took me many years to understand this truth and this is how important for a child of God to go thru it. Without love and mercy, all the failures, sins, guilt…will continue to stay in my heart. God ultimate concern is want us to go through the love and mercy. If you really hear God said “i have forgiven you”, and you still can’t forgive yourself, then is because you still have not go through the cross with God. God’s love and mercy is above every sin and problem and that is why Christ was born for me and for you and was named “Immanuel”, God is with us. Therefore, I have “立志“ that no matter what happen, even if I fall again, I will continue to learn and experience His love and mercy for the rest of my life walking with God.
So in the year of 2010, after what I have been through, I came out with 3 prayers items for the year of 2011.
1) To know and be able to rely more on the Holy Spirit as I reviewed myself that I am not relying much on the Holy Spirit. Therefore, I prayed that in every situation I am in, for every word that I speak, for every serving in God, no matter what I do, it is through the Holy Spirit that I am able to receive Christ’s power, wisdom and answer in everything.
2) I need to build my temple systematically by equipping myself more so that I receive concrete answers in my life and people around me. And what I have disbelief in Y2010, may I restore the right faith and become my perspective to do in all ways.
3) I know everyone is praying for me to have a baby and I prayed this will come true in Y2011. 🙂
Well, the prayer items seems quite difficult to achieve but whether it will fulfil it by next year or not, but as long I sent these prayers to God, God will surely fulfilled it, maybe one year or two… He will fulfil it more than I can imagine because God always gives us surprises! 🙂
Before I come to the end, I wish everyone has a blessed New Year. What we have been through this year were preparations ready for God’s perfect will and eternal crown in heaven. May we will enjoy more fruits of Spirit in our lives and our loved one in the New Year.
I have choose this short hymn “Turn you eyes upon Jesus”. Indeed, when we turn our eyes upon the grace, love and mercy of Jesus, everything we see in our situation will be different, we will have hope, assurance, courage and strength to face whatever stand before us.
Our days may come to seventy years, or eighty, if our strength endures; yet the best of them are but trouble and sorrow, for they quickly pass, and we fly away. If only we knew the power of your anger! Your wrath is as great as the fear that is your due. Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.