Here is the short video clip for last Sunday Message.
January was over and now is the start of February. The happiest thing is my father-in-law has finally discharged from the hospital but here’s we are going to prepare for another battle which is his “heart”, knowing the full gospel. May the Holy Spirit continue to convince his heart and mind that he will understand and see God’s perfect will in his life and family.
Well, talking about “heart’ again, I find it has become more interesting. At first, knowing the real problem is that God’s words are not believed thru the “heart”, therefore the heart feels unhappy even we know God’s words. The next step of learning the “heart” is how to believe uprightly and create a pure heart. Throughout all my Christian-living, when caught in a situation that causes me to lose my faith in God, I will become timid, discouraged and start to blame myself and people beside me. So through the message, God’s “心意”is to correct me from all distorted faith I have in the past.
This week I have been thinking about my heart in more depth. I went thru my heart again and found there is some hidden part of me that I did not face God completely, which means I have not totally “连与”Jesus Christ (Only Jesus). Therefore out of nowhere, the past failures keep coming into my mind that I have quickly concluded myself how inferior I am and how powerless I am. If I have completely “belonged to Jesus Christ”, I shouldn’t conclude myself as to what kind of person I am but “who I am” to Christ. Wengang had said something which gives me a very deep impression, “Am I married to Christ alone or married to my conditions”? Here I am trying to emphasis my “belonging”(归属) in Christ, being able to face God because of who I belong to, so it does not matter with what I am or what people will think of me or how I think of whether others are good or bad, yet all these were how I judge by what I desired, but which does not belong to God’s desire.
In Song 7:10 said, “I belong to my Beloved, and His desire is for me.”
In this world, people are hungering for status, money, love, food, 平平安安, etc.. but there are no ending satisfactions in them. For a blessed child of God, he or she would also have these desires. Well, you know I have recently bought an LV bag in Europe. When I saw many people crowding at the LV shop, they claimed that the goods are cheaper than back in Singapore. Therefore, if I did not buy back then, I would surely face regret. As I could not resist the temptation, and that the bag looked so elegant, special and beautiful, if I did not buy it then, I did not think I would ever have chance to buy in Singapore. So I asked God, “Can I buy? Can I just have one last chance to pamper myself?” At that moment, I know very clearly that the Holy Spirit prompted me not to buy as I did not have peace in my heart but I was also afraid I would regret if I did not buy it then. Actually the problem is not whether I can buy the bag or not, but whether I am able to differentiate the voice of the Holy Spirit and so not to become the channel used by Satan to affect my heart and the people around me. In the beginning I felt very guilty, but I gave thanks to God that He had taught me a good lesson.
I will praise the LORD, who counsels me;
even at night my heart instructs me.
<Psalm 16:7 >
God is alive and already lives in me, so in every problem/situation, there has the evidence of Immanuel. To preserve the faith (Believe à Heart) is to see and confirm in my heart. Everyday life is surrounded by our enemy, and the only weapon is the faith that God gives. With the pure faith, my heart will thus renew and has ability to live it out thru the Holy Spirit. During hearing the message, the Holy Spirit keeps confirming in my heart that I must “看重自己的尊贵”！There is always a heavenly purpose in my life that all my past works for the good for His purpose. Following, I then realized how small my problem (past, background, and conditions) is and how it gives me strength to face my tomorrow, and the challenges God has prepared and His great plans awaiting me.
Coming to the end of my blog, I wish everyone has a blessed New Year and let us continue to have a prayer heart for our loves one during this season. 🙂
Here’s a song I recently heard it from my car cd. This song really touches me that regardless of how good or bad I am, how hard I tried to get the best, but in the end, I realized the good in me is because of “who I am”” and all I have to be is what “You’ve (God) made me from the first.” The real purpose that God had created me to enjoy all the blessing in Him. Even though there are times we may fall down, going thru all the difficulties, just remember of who you are and what you are made to be. Hope you enjoy and receive grace from it.
All I Ever Have To Be
When the weight of all my dreams is resting heavy on my head,
And the thoughtful words of health and hope have all been nicely said.
But I’m still hurting, wondering if I’ll ever be the one I think I am.
I think I am.
Then you gently re-remind me that you’ve made me from the first,
And the more I try to be the best the more I get the worst.
And I realize the good in me, is only there because of who you are.
Who you are…
And all I ever have to be is what you’ve made me.
Any more or less would be a step out of your plan.
As you daily recreate me, help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do what I can find.
And all I ever have to be
All I have to be
All I ever have to be
Is what you’ve made me.
“let us draw near to God with a sincere heart and with the full assurance that faith brings, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess,
for he who promised is faithful."
Video (Chinese): http://www.lifechurchmissions.com/VideoWindow.aspx?m=897&f=3130Audio