I am sorry that I have not blog for a long… time. I have been quite busy lately with lots of stuff but I think this is not a good reason, maybe I feel I am lack of confidence to write more. May God continue to sustain my spirit in this area.
This month pulpit message shared about the Book of Proverbs. In the past I find this book is all about wisdom and when I look at myself, wisdom?!… Well, hard to find in me and also hard to grasp the mystery of wisdom but I think I have some misunderstanding. God’s wisdom is already in me, it is not I can force or find it else where, it was all about His words and the Holy Spirit in me. If I can live out the word of God in my heart through the Holy Spirit, that is wisdom and knowledge that God gives.
During the last Sunday message, it talks about how to restore the glorious family by a man and wife. This message is very appropriate to many couples, especially to those married couple or going to-be. As a wife, I am learning to submit my husband, especially when I recognise his authority that God has given to him as a husband and deacon, the family will surrounded with thankfulness and peacefulness. When I do not rely on the Holy Spirit and lean on my own thinking way/desire, I will push him away and surely receive lots of complain and expectation towards each other.
From the message, the most profound word to me is “Roles”. This is the word that God has been drilling me all these while, not only to know the right roles but the ‘GLORIOUS’ role. Even the most humble role, can you find the glorious role we are in? Looking at my conditions, I am too relying on my own understanding, thinking too lowly of myself and fearing of failure. My understanding is only on the side of myself, but God created me to receive the glorious purpose He prepared in every role. No matter I am SIC, a wife or an elder-to-be, even I am seems too quiet and slow, but God’s glorious purpose in me has never changed or slows down. In the glorious purpose lies in Christ, there is love and mercy, faithfulness, righteousness and great hope above. Yes, I need Christ and I need Him to the fullest.
“I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you,
the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints,”
God really loves me so much, not because of the things I do, not because of my slowness or incompetent, but how He wants me so much to Know Him and Rely Him more so that He can fulfil the glorious role as a wife in the family and a servant of God.
“I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation,
so that you may know him better.”
Coming to the end of May, there will be many travel mates coming to Singapore and some of them are coming to stay in my house. Supposedly it is a very honour and glorious thing to receive them but somehow there is a pressure in my heart, someone said it is easy but I find it hard because firstly it is not one person, it may be 4 person and I don’t know I can handle well with their needs. I believe this is God wants to heal me, to see how God wants to bless me through their stay in my house. Yes again, glorious role!
Here I would like to introduce you a song that I heard from CLCP. It is a very beautiful song and also very appropriate to the needs in my spirit. Enjoy.
Beautiful Lord, Wonderful savior
I know for sure all of my days are held in your hands
Crafted into your perfect plans
You gently called me into your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life
Through your eyes
I’m captured by your holy calling
Set me apart. I know you’re drawing me to yourself
lead me, Lord. I pray
Take me, mold me, use me, fill me
I give my life to the potter’s hand
Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the potter’s hand
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
< Pr 3:5-6>
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