You Are Already Blessed And Loved

Hi, it has been quite some time I have not blog. Today I would just like to share a song to you. We have heard that so many times that “we are blessed and loved” but when we are living in this world, we have meet different kinds of people, doing the same routine each day, facing the same problem and situation, and even sometimes may fall into temptation. It is just because we are still in our flesh, evil will come to attack and blind us with all these worldly things that we may forgotten or even not convince that we are already blessed and loved by God.

Carry the cross

People think I am working for the Lord is very blessed and also fewer problems to face each day. Yes, indeed serving God is very blessed but there are also times of troubles and stressfulness, although everyday it seems normal, it seems I have a nice and clean environment house and a very flexible time to work, but the loneliness, disciplinary and failure may just makes me feel weak and strength-less. And sometimes when people ask me about having a child, I just do not know how to answer though I really want it so much. I just keep quiet and continue to preserve my heart, not letting them to affect me. I know all these are my cross and battle to face, but no matter how strong the attack is, it brings me more to rely on God.

Use the crossAnd at the end, the cross actually helps to cross the bridge, able to overcome all problems.

Rely on God

Many people are trouble is because they always think they did not receive the best when they look at others, or get accuse of their doings’ which does not delight by God, and all of these are actually from the deceiver, therefore the only way is to rely on the Christ’s cross. Relying on God does not just want Him to solve my problems immediately; not just want to make all the negatives thoughts to go away. “Relying” on God means “relying on the Holy Spirit”, it makes me realize that I have some disbelief in me, I have some old-self and I need to turn and trust the unchanging promises of God, and then once again restore His unfailing love, restore the hope of His good plans for me and the inheritance He has prepared for me. When I truly quiet my heart and start to rely on His promises, I hear the loving voice of God, saying:

I am HERE WITH YOU. I have SO MUCH LOVE to give you. So many things to give that you CANNOT FATHOM. If you do not know to speak, I will TEACH YOU. If you feel not enough, I will SATISFY YOU. If you think you are lonely, I will NEVER FORSAKE YOU, and will TAKE YOU UP. If you are heartbroken, I will HEALS and BINDS THE WOUNDS”.


God protects

God never let go

5261Girl-Praying-PostersNow, what I need to do is continue to pray and keep receiving all His goodness in me. God is faithful, His absolute promises will fulfil no matter how weak I am. We may have many things to do, we may have fail in many ways, but never depend and put focus in our own endeavoured, only the treasures above (God alone). What we truly need to put our effort is to earnestness seek the blessing of God in “persevering, patient, and believing prayer”. Further, we have not only to continue in prayer until the end, but we have also to believe that God does hear us and will answer our prayers. The result will surely be abundant blessing. Whether you see much fruit or little fruit, such kind of service will be blessed. Then, every burden will roll off from me, and only a great love for Christ filled my soul.

Scripture to ponder:

Song of Songs 2:1-4
I am a rose of Sharon, a lily of the valleys. Like a lily among thorns is my darling among the maidens. Like an apple tree among the trees of the forest is my lover among the young men. I delight to sit in his shade, and his fruit is sweet to my taste. He has taken me to the banquet hall, and his banner over me is love.

Psalms 23:6, 86:11, 141:2
Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Teach me your way, LORD, that I may rely on your faithfulness; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name.

May my prayer be set before you like incense; may the lifting up of my hands be like the evening sacrifice.

Isaiah 26:4
Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord himself, is the Rock eternal.

Ephesians 5:2
walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

Come back to the song, may we continue to rely on God, to receive God’s strong and unchanging love. Yes, we are already blessed and loved by God. May our life, no matter how it would be, will be like a fragrance prayer, like a beautiful psalms, that to be use by God and dwell in the house of the Lord forever. Enjoy the song.





Psalms 119


This week message was about ‘Obey’ and recently I have read a scripture from Psalms 119 and it is the longest chapter in the bible. God values His children so much and delights of those who obey in His laws and those who obey will receive His blessing.

Well, here I would like to share some of my small little convictions from these verses below. May this Psalms be our prayer and shared the same grace and convictions from King David.

1 Blessed are those whose ways are blameless,
   who walk according to the law of the LORD.
2 Blessed are those who keep his statutes
   and seek him with all their heart—
3 they do no wrong
   but follow his ways.
4 You have laid down precepts
   that are to be fully obeyed.
5 Oh, that my ways were steadfast
   in obeying your decrees!
6 Then I would not be put to shame
   when I consider all your commands.

The pardoning mercy of God in Christ, is the only source of a sinner’s happiness. One who depend on God’s promises and obey His words is the most happy person because simply believe it, his ways are blameless and receive a real joy that is free from sin.

18 Open my eyes that I may see
   wonderful things in your law.
19 I am a stranger on earth;
   do not hide your commands from me.
20 My soul is consumed with longing
   for your laws at all times.
24 Your statutes are my delight;
   they are my counselors.

May God continue to open our eyes to see the unsearchable riches of Christ in His commandments to become my delight and my counselors.

28 My soul is weary with sorrow;
   strengthen me according to your word.
29 Keep me from deceitful ways;
   be gracious to me and teach me your law.
30 I have chosen the way of faithfulness;
   I have set my heart on your laws.
31 I hold fast to your statutes, LORD;
   do not let me be put to shame.
32 I run in the path of your commands,
   for you have broadened my understanding.

Sometime we have burdened, we cannot enjoy the peace and joy in our hearts because of carnal affections in our hearts and being accused by Satan. It is only through understand God’s statutes and willing to walk in His way, our spirit will melts into the need of Christ, willing to pour out our soul before God.

36 Turn my heart toward your statutes
   and not toward selfish gain.
37 Turn my eyes away from worthless things;
   preserve my life according to your word.
38 Fulfill your promise to your servant,
   so that you may be feared.
39 Take away the disgrace I dread,
   for your laws are good.
40 How I long for your precepts!
   In your righteousness preserve my life.

There are many selfishness in me, sometime my eyes just turn to the earthly things, but God’s spirit is within me, though there is struggling between the two laws, only the cross of Jesus Christ with abundant grace and promises reminds me that His laws is full of wisdom, love, protection, pure, sweetness and finally victory.

75 I know, LORD, that your laws are righteous,
   and that in faithfulness you have afflicted me.
76 May your unfailing love be my comfort,
   according to your promise to your servant.
77 Let your compassion come to me that I may live,
   for your law is my delight.

The mercies of God are tender mercies, just like the compassion of a Father to her son. Therefore, we ought to continue seek God, by His Holy Spirit, to give us understand of His unfailing love and mercy for us so when we face any affliction, we will know see His faithfulness.

67 Before I was afflicted I went astray, 
    but now I obey your word.
68 You are good, and what you do is good;
    teach me your decrees.
71 It was good for me to be afflicted
   so that I might learn your decrees.
72 The law from your mouth is more precious to me
   than thousands of pieces of silver and gold.
81 My soul faints with longing for your salvation,
   but I have put my hope in your word.
82 My eyes fail, looking for your promise;
   I say, “When will you comfort me?”
84 How long must your servant wait?
   When will you punish my persecutors?
85 The arrogant dig pits to trap me,
   contrary to your law.
88 In your unfailing love preserve my life,
   that I may obey the statutes of your mouth.
95 The wicked are waiting to destroy me,
   but I will ponder your statutes.
96 To all perfection I see a limit,
   but your commands are boundless.

When problems come, some believers will ask why God give me this problem, why He didn’t bless me, why it doesn’t turn out to be a blessing or when will you stop Satan… There are so many doubts and I have ever questions God before, but in verse 68 said that “God is good, and what He do is good.” God has allowed problems to come because He wants me to see and experience every goodness in Jesus Christ; His love, mercy, faithfulness, hope… And only through affliction can learn to see His decrees is so precious that overwhelm all problems, and only obey His words can truly preserve my life. I love verse 96 said “to all perfection I see a limit, but your commands are boundless. “

98 Your commands are always with me
   and make me wiser than my enemies.
99 I have more insight than all my teachers,
   for I meditate on your statutes.
100 I have more understanding than the elders,
   for I obey your precepts.
101 I have kept my feet from every evil path
   so that I might obey your word.
102 I have not departed from your laws,
   for you yourself have taught me.
103 How sweet are your words to my taste,
   sweeter than honey to my mouth!
104 I gain understanding from your precepts;
   therefore I hate every wrong path.
105 Your word is a lamp for my feet,
   a light on my path.
106 I have taken an oath and confirmed it,
   that I will follow your righteous laws.

Through meditation and confirmation in His words, true wisdom will come from God that gives me the understanding of the Holy Spirit, to keep me away from sins. and guide me like a lamp on my feet.

114 You are my refuge and my shield;
   I have put my hope in your word.
115 Away from me, you evildoers,
   that I may keep the commands of my God!
116 Sustain me, my God, according to your promise, and I will live;
   do not let my hopes be dashed.
117 Uphold me, and I will be delivered;
   I will always have regard for your decrees.
120 My flesh trembles in fear of you;
   I stand in awe of your laws.

By the promises of God who gave us hopes, our hearts will more willing to obey and the more we will be watchful, lest we let our thoughts drawn to the devil plans.

141 Though I am lowly and despised,
   I do not forget your precepts.
142 Your righteousness is everlasting
   and your law is true.
143 Trouble and distress have come upon me,
   but your commands give me delight.
144 Your statutes are always righteous;
   give me understanding that I may live.

When we feel small and despised, the more we need God’s precepts because only His words can give us delights of His everlasting promises.

153 Look on my suffering and deliver me,
   for I have not forgotten your law.
154 Defend my cause and redeem me;
   preserve my life according to your promise.
156 Your compassion, LORD, is great;
   preserve my life according to your laws.

The closer we cleave to the word of God, the more assurance we have of deliverance.

162 I rejoice in your promise
   like one who finds great spoil.
163 I hate and detest falsehood
   but I love your law.
164 Seven times a day I praise you
   for your righteous laws.
165 Great peace have those who love your law,
   and nothing can make them stumble.
168 I obey your precepts and your statutes,
   for all my ways are known to you.

I like the verse 162, “rejoice in Your promise, like one who finds great spoil. “ –> I feel so loved!
And through loving God’s word will receive great peace and also the only way to subdue our carnal affections.

169 May my cry come before you, LORD;
   give me understanding according to your word.
170 May my supplication come before you;
   deliver me according to your promise.
171 May my lips overflow with praise,
   for you teach me your decrees.
172 May my tongue sing of your word,
   for all your commands are righteous.
173 May your hand be ready to help me,
   for I have chosen your precepts.
174 I long for your salvation, LORD,
   and your law gives me delight.
175 Let me live that I may praise you,
   and may your laws sustain me.
176 I have strayed like a lost sheep.
   Seek your servant,
   for I have not forgotten your commands.

Looking back the shame I have done but also feel with gratitude. So I am learning to praise and give thanks to God everyday as His words have every good purpose in my life. May I also learn to always look up to God and willing to obey His words even I have many weaknesses.


Sharing of this song from Don Moen. May the word of God be unto you and to the people you loved.

Be It Unto Me Lyrics

Chorus:Be it unto me According to your Word According to your promises I can stand secure Carve upon my heart The truth that sets me free According to your Word O Lord Be it unto me
You promised your word will deliver Lord, we believe it's true You promised us joy like a river Lord we receive it from you These things you have spoken And you're bringing to pass This world's disappearing But your word will last


You promised to carry our sorrows Lord, we believe it's true You promised unending tomorrows Lord we receive them from you These things you have spoken And you're bringing to pass This world's disappearing But your word will last



As long as I believe 只要相信

I have found a song recently and here I would like to share with you. Although many people may think it is not easy to believe or may ask how to believe. I came across this song and what touches me is God’s promises. I don’t have to do a lot to have the faith in God, I don’t need to have a great faith to face/overcome every problems, I just know I need God and when I turn to God and set my eyes on His everlasting love, a light of hope kindle in my heart. Although it is still a small little faith but it is just enough that I need the most now.






He remembers his covenant forever, the promise he made,
for a thousand generations,
<Psalm 105:8>

Then they believed his promises and sang his praise.
<Psalm 106:12>

He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move.
Nothing will be impossible for you.”
<Mat 17:20>

Its outspread wings will cover the breadth of your land, Immanuel” <Is 8:8>

but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
<Is 40:31>

in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. <Pr 3:6>

However, as it is written: “What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard, and what no human mind has conceived— the things God has prepared for those who love him— 
<1 Co 2:9>

The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness. <Je 31:3>

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
<Gal 20:20>

Sunday Message (11Sep):
If Remain in Disbelief, Cannot Receive Conviction of Holy Spirit

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He Giveth More Grace

These few days I have been thinking about grace. In the bible it said, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
Everyday of my life, I was thinking how much grace I have receive from God or rather how much grace I have seen in my life. God’s grace gives us encouragement, comfort and peace but I seldom see the grace of God can greatly manifest His strength and the power of healing to all the problems and situations.
God’s grace is gives us a lot comfort, but it is even more greater than we imagined as the scriptures I have mentioned above, it is ‘Christ’s power’ made perfect in our weakness and so may ‘REST’ on us.
So we all need God’s grace so much… 
~ Grace is given by God, it is not bought in the market but through the cross of Jesus Christ.

~ God’s grace is given to heal the spiritual sick.
~ God’s grace is bestow benefit upon the undeserving.
~ God’s grace can pardon our ungodliness and justify us with Christ’s righteousness.
~ God’s grace can put the Spirit of Jesus Christ within us; it can help us when we are down; it can heal us when we are wounded; it can multiply pardons, as we through our multiply transgressions.
~ When abounding by the grace of God is the hope of mankind.
~ In the need of God’s presence of every passing hour, the grace of God can foil the temper’s power.
And many more grace….
When I was trouble and feeling accuse by all these mistakes I have made, it was all because I did not rely much on God’s grace, not relying on His Holy Spirit but on my own. Who has never make mistakes? It is because we make too much mistake that we need His grace so much. So when I have said the wrong things or made any mistakes, there is God’s grace in it. In His grace, it leads us to deeper wisdom, knowledge, and understanding of His truth.
Therefore once again, I have to turn back to His grace, depend on God alone again, to know Him more again and again and again…and the grace of God that gives wisdom and knowledge will come and teach me to live life full of God’s works through me with all my conditions.
So in 2 Peter 3:17-18, "Therefore, dear friends, since you already know this, be on your guard so that you may not be carried away by the error of lawless men and fall from your secure position. But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen."
There are two quotes which I would like to share with you.
“A state of mind that sees God in everything is evidence of growth in grace and a thankful heart.”
-Charles G. Finney (1792-1875)

“ God, give us grace to accept with serenity the things that cannot be changed, courage to change the things that can be changed, and the wisdom to distinguish one from the other”
-Reinhold Niebuhr (American theologian, 1892-1971)

With all the grace of God, we inherit the divine nature of God that He appoints our graces to be nurses to other men’s weaknesses so as to fulfilled the purpose of God’s kingdom.
Until now, I am still confirming more to rely on the Lord Jesus Christ who shows His love, forgiveness, and empower His child with His great grace of the Cross. Hope through all the mistakes I am going through, I may learn and continue to discover the Immanuel God who gives grace in my daily life and be use for His kingdom.
“Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord. “

Here is a hymn I would like to share with you. I really love the lyrics and one of it is said, His grace is giveth again and again and again… Indeed, God’s grace is unlimited, unconditional and was given again and again till we see Him again.

He giveth more grace
When the burdens grow greater,
He sendeth more strength
When the labours increase.

To added affliction
He addeth His mercy,
To multiplied trials, His multiplied peace.

His love has no limit,
His grace has no measure,
His pow’r has no boundary
Known unto men;
For out of His infinite riches in Jesus,
He giveth, and giveth,
And giveth again!

When we have exhausted
Our store of endurance,
When our strength has failed
Ere’ the day is half done,
When we reach the end of our
Hoarded resources,
Our Father’s full giving is only begun.

"And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast."
1 Peter 5:10

Parents with wisdom impart wisdom to their children (Covenant with God)

Picture2I do not have any children yet but as a Sunday school teacher, I am learning to examine and understand the child’s spirit. The last Sunday message is all about how a parent teaches their children with wisdom, well I do not have any children yet so I guess I would not have so much conviction on this message but I believe surely God has some words for me through every message.

God has made His everlasting covenant to us and to all the generations when you believe it, even though the trials will come but will never be harm. In Deuteronomy 7:9 said, “Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commandments.” Yes, He keeps His covenant of LOVE! Everything He done for us is because of LOVE. As I hear about God’s covenant, I see every problem, every situation, every trials and hardship are out of His great love for us, even to our love ones and our descendents.


In Nehemiah 9:31-33 said, “But in your great mercy you did not put an end to them or abandon them, for you are a gracious and merciful God. Now therefore, our God, the great God, mighty and awesome, who keeps his covenant of love, do not let all this hardship seem trifling in your eyes—”

From this verse, it said “do not let all this hardship seems trifling in your eye.” Sometime we see the problems in us and our loves one (including children) gives us pain and trouble but when we keep His covenant of love in us, our hearts (change) will fill with His love, mercy and hope because this is what the Lord has promised us. Yes, because of His covenant He made to us, that every problems/hardship has turn into blessing.

I have learned to confide myself to the Lord and each time I did that, God will surely speaks to me in every ways. Even when I am weak with no strength, I know God has His plans for me so I just quietly wait and hope upon the Lord. Sometime God will send some brethren to comfort me by confronting their problems to me as I also learned to more rely on the Holy Spirit to teach and counsel them. I may not be perfect in my words but the more I rely on God, the more He give me the wisdom and words for them. At the end of the day, I realized every word I teach is also meant for me, to always affirm that God is always with me and His covenant He made will maintain and never fail.

I also always learned to examine my spirit, I may have anger, self-pity, stressful, etc… but sometime things happen for a reason, this is when my heart lose the identity and purpose therefore I was indulge into my own desire ways. Maybe God is teaching me to have more confident in my own identity and purpose so that in future when I have children, I know how and why I need to teach them with God’s promises.

Isaiah 59:21 said, “As for me, this is my covenant with them,” says the LORD. “My Spirit, who is on you, will not depart from you, and my words that I have put in your mouth will always be on your lips, on the lips of your children and on the lips of their descendants—from this time on and forever,” says the LORD.
May we continue to affirm His covenant He has made to us and let His words flow to our descendants. Although it is not easy but as we continue to trust in Him, God will give us the strength in our heart, and it will grow more and more as we come closer to His covenant of love.

A song dedicated to you, may you are strengthen once again with God’s everlasting love and promises.


你仰脸保守你所爱的 你护庇永远不离弃

你将我从淤泥里捧起 放我在你的手心

我凭着信心领取 你丰盛的应许

世界也不能夺去 神美好的旨意

我凭着信心领取 你恩典永不止息

看见美好应许成就 荣耀全都归于你

我等候主我相信 你爱我永不放弃

世界也不能夺去 神美好的旨意

我等候主我相信 你旨意高过我的

看见美好应许成就 我全心全意敬拜你

He remembers his covenant forever, the promise he made,
for a thousand generations,
Psalm 105:8 >

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Glorious Family Brought About by Man and Wife Restoring Glorious Roles

I am sorry that I have not blog for a long… time. I have been quite busy lately with lots of stuff but I think this is not a good reason, maybe I feel I am lack of confidence to write more. May God continue to sustain my spirit in this area.

This month pulpit message shared about the Book of Proverbs. In the past I find this book is all about wisdom and when I look at myself, wisdom?!… Well, hard to find in me and also hard to grasp the mystery of wisdom but I think I have some misunderstanding. God’s wisdom is already in me, it is not I can force or find it else where, it was all about His words and the Holy Spirit in me. If I can live out the word of God in my heart through the Holy Spirit, that is wisdom and knowledge that God gives.


During the last Sunday message, it talks about how to restore the glorious family by a man and wife. This message is very appropriate to many couples, especially to those married couple or going to-be. As a wife, I am learning to submit my husband, especially when I recognise his authority that God has given to him as a husband and deacon, the family will surrounded with thankfulness and peacefulness. When I do not rely on the Holy Spirit and lean on my own thinking way/desire, I will push him away and surely receive lots of complain and expectation towards each other.

From the message, the most profound word to me is “Roles”. This is the word that God has been drilling me all these while, not only to know the right roles but the ‘GLORIOUS’ role. Even the most humble role, can you find the glorious role we are in? Looking at my conditions, I am too relying on my own understanding, thinking too lowly of myself and fearing of failure. My understanding is only on the side of myself, but God created me to receive the glorious purpose He prepared in every role. No matter I am SIC, a wife or an elder-to-be, even I am seems too quiet and slow, but God’s glorious purpose in me has never changed or slows down. In the glorious purpose lies in Christ, there is love and mercy, faithfulness, righteousness and great hope above. Yes, I need Christ and I need Him to the fullest.

“I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you,
the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints,”

God really loves me so much, not because of the things I do, not because of my slowness or incompetent, but how He wants me so much to Know Him and Rely Him more so that He can fulfil the glorious role as a wife in the family and a servant of God.

 “I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation,
so that you may know him better.”
<Ep1:17 >

Coming to the end of May, there will be many travel mates coming to Singapore and some of them are coming to stay in my house. Supposedly it is a very honour and glorious thing to receive them but somehow there is a pressure in my heart, someone said it is easy but I find it hard because firstly it is not one person, it may be 4 person and I don’t know I can handle well with their needs. I believe this is God wants to heal me, to see how God wants to bless me through their stay in my house. Yes again, glorious role!

Here I would like to introduce you a song that I heard from CLCP. It is a very beautiful song and also very appropriate to the needs in my spirit. Enjoy.

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful savior
I know for sure all of my days are held in your hands
Crafted into your perfect plans

You gently called me into your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life
Through your eyes

I’m captured by your holy calling
Set me apart. I know you’re drawing me to yourself
lead me, Lord. I pray

Take me, mold me, use me, fill me
I give my life to the potter’s hand
Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the potter’s hand

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
< Pr 3:5-6>

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Who is the most patient?

blog board Since I started my blog, it became more difficult because it has to put in more time and work in it. It has been always not an easy task for me to write a blog because my languages is quite weak. It always took almost 6-8 hours to do my blog each time and always have to check many times to confirm not much mistake in my writing, but end up still have many grammar and spelling mistakes after someone corrected me. Sometime I was wondering, those people who are good in English, can express it beautifully, have more juicy testimony and can do a better job, but why me? Is it just because I sent a weekly email to everybody so might as well I do a blog. But did everyone really read my email every week? Yes, my blog got many content but it took many hours to do, need to listen to the message again before editing the video, need to have full concentration on my sharing because it has to connect with the message, that’s why people may think my sharing is too intensive and becomes too boring. Then I also need to check on my spelling or grammar mistakes before I can send out, so I was quite exhausted after everything. Ok, so ‘Phew’, finally finished one task and what’s next? What do I gain after all the hard work each week?

Although in my heart I complained a lot, but I know it is God who wants me to do. Ok, since God wants me to do, so I wait patiently and see how God is going to bless me. So I wait and wait… hmm, but why my heart still has all these grievance and doubts. What does God wants to tell me? Definitely God has His perfect will, but what is it? 

ImpatientI’ve became more and more impatient, just when I’m going to give up, God suddenly sent someone to me and said to me that he can ‘smell the blood of Jesus Christ’ after reading my blog. At that time, I realized that I’m not doing all these alone, God is always by my side to lead me to write out each of my sharing, most importantly God favors me. It was very comforted and happy to be favor by God. Now I see why God has give me this blog, beside to bless people, most importantly God wants to bless me. All my sharing about my sins and my weaknesses is to let me see how the blood of Jesus Christ had saved me, cleansed me and how I’m loved by God, really it’s notGOD'S GRACE ENABLES ME.06 by works nor by my boast but by God’s grace. I can do many hours for my blog is by God’s grace. I can still be around in the Church and attend 4 meetings is by God’s grace. Even my blog has many mistakes and seems boring, God can still use my poor writing and boring sharing. Even if it’s only just one person can smell the blood of Jesus, this is the glory of God, this is what God wants me to gain and bless me. All this are by God’s grace. And I’m a silence type so God wants me to serve Him silently but at the end of the day, what I gain the most is the fruits He had already prepared for me. 🙂

patience I also realized another thing, be patient to God just as God is patient to me. When I think of my weaknesses, sometimes I wondered why God didn’t punish me harder after I made mistake, why sometime seems like God didn’t help me and let me suffer, actually through all my past failures until I served the Lord now as SIC in church, God is always waited patiently for me. He never blames me for complaining to him, never blames me for not doing well in serving Him, never blames me for my weaknesses, He just only waiting for me to return to Him (to the cross). God is not slow to fulfill His promises to me, but if I don’t return to Him (to the cross), He can’t fulfill it yet. Just like a father who wants to give the best to the son, but if the son don’t appreciate or don’t see the best, how He give to the son immediately?

So conclusion, God is the most patient person in the whole universe. Even if I fall again and again, He still waited patiently for me because I’m His beloved child, He loves me and wants to bless me. Well, because God is the most patient to me, forgive me for been impatient to Him, may I be more patient and humble before Him & not to doubt my God, my Father. May all my weaknesses I’ve written here be all glory to the Lord. During all the process, God will show me more the understand of His Love and the Paid All which was shared on Good Friday. Open-mouthed

In Peter 3:9 , it said: ‘The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.’

Yes, God is not slow in keeping His promise, He is always patient to us and just wants us to return to the cross where everything had done and fulfilled.